Why I don't feel like Christmas......

[markiver54]

Hang in there Forty. Thoughts are with you.
This will be our first Christmas without my Mom.

[Ernie]

That is something we could never imagine or plan for when we are young and relatively care free. You are doing all you can by the sound of it, try to cut yourself some slack if you can. Your dear wife appreciates it even if she can’t show it. Christmas is a time for caring and you are doing exactly that. Prayers for you.

I could not have expressed it better.
Prayers.

[graywolf]

I believe the same way as RanchRoper. Your wife may not can express her feelings, but she knows what you are doing. Will be thinking about you..

[fortyshooter]

Many thanks for all of your thoughts and support. My brief relief is when I can spend a couple hours down at my range property but I do call her on the phone and somehow she answers it as my name pops up on it. I tell her where and what I am doing and she will look out the window looking for me.
Our next-door neighbor lost her husband back in January after he had suffered several strokes over couple years plus my brother died Jan. 21 so we both talk about our struggles. Going to my nieces home for Christmas Eve dinner which is new thing this Christmas and then to my son's place Christmas as I take a break from doing it at our home. Will be getting back down to the range soon for more FUN.
Hope you all enjoy the Christmas Holidays!!

[JVogler]

Forty may GOD grant you the strength and some relief that you and your wife could both use right now.

[daytime dave]

Forty, my thoughts are with you and your wife.

For her sake, I hope she is blissfully unaware. You are a good person and will make sure she gets what she needs now. I'll be working on Christmas, so no going to family gatherings. Just another day at work.

[Sir Henry]

My thoughts and Prayers will be with you forty. Keep doing the things you enjoy doing like shooting. It’s okay to escape reality if for even a moment.

[Hatchdog]

Happy you are getting some range relief and bless you for the support you give to your wife. Merry Christmas to the both of you.

[GFK]

I can understand. We went through something similar with my mother, years ago. It was not pleasant. I was just glad that she was in a place to care for her. Yet, all places are not equal. So, visit often.

God bless

[brm4450]

Sometimes I feel like that, MIL passed away Christmas Eve years ago, brother passed away on Christmas morning. I let these things bring me down and then I think oh something good like my shooting partner finishing her first semester in school for the first time in 4 years, my daughter doing a gender reveal of a grandson due this May. These things make me feel happy.